I've been really challenged to make sure that my life is missions, not just trips. My pastor had this sermon on intercessing in prayer and coming before God about everyone else. Like Jesus always prayed for everyone else much more than He prayed for Himself. You can read in John  where Jesus prayed for the future believers, not the unbelievers, the future ones.

The people at my school have been on my heart hardcore. Especially the ones in my drama program at the moment. I spend most of my time with them and love them so much. I see some of the pain that some of them are going through and have gone through and it breaks my heart. A lot of them have had bad experiences with Christianity/ other religions and have totally discredited it. They don't like someone else telling them what's wrong and right in their life. I don't blame them, when you look at a

religion that just has a bunch of rules and right and wrongs and a god that just looks down and throws lightening rods and hits you with yardsticks and wants a bunch of robots, why would you want to believe? But I want them to see a
faith in a loving God, that cares about them and their lives and just wants to love them. He wants to walk life with them, they don't have to do it on their own. He wants them to give their burdens up to Him, not smite them with lightening.

  These people are seriously some of the funniest and coolest people you'll ever meet. There have been a couple in particular that God has placed on my heart and I pray for them almost everyday. One thinks that church is cool, just not for him, like faith is okay for everyone else, but he just wasn't made for it. Please pray that he will just see that God loves him not matter the past and that God is never going to leave him. Another girl I can see God working in her life but I don't think she knows it yet. I can see Him touching her heart. Please just be in prayer that she will find the truth in christ. There's another girl where I can tell she's been in a lot pain and has her fair share of scars. Pray that she can see that God is the ultimate Healer.

They would probably hate this blog actually. A lot of people think that I share my faith just to rack up points on the Christian scoreboard. Or to prove to everyone that I'm right and know everything. That I think I know everything and that anything that doesn't fit in my beliefs is wrong. None of us share our beliefs for anything like that. I have found joy and a best friend that will never leave me, why wouldn't I want other people to find it as well? If you see a good movie or go to a good restaurant you tell everyone else. If I found a truth that has changed my life and given me something to live for I want to do the same thing. If you see someone with a really bad headache, you tell them to aspirin. If I see someone hurting, I want them to know what can help them and thats God. Wouldn't I be an idiot to not want to tell them?

I'm not right about a lot of things, some things ya probably (just kidding!) But if I know anything it is that the love God has for us surpasses anything I could ever try to fill my life with. Christianity isn't easy. It's not a world with flowers, bunnies and rainbows where bubbles float down and the lakes are filled with chocolate. Although I bet that would be sweet! In fact following Christ is the hardest thing I have ever done/do. But God is more than worth it.

This frusturates me because I love these guys so much. They mean the world to me and have taught me so much. I know that the most powerful thing I can do is pray and let Christ live through me. God loves them so much and I just want them to know that.

Prayer request: That my fellow theatre nerds will see that God isn't a guy with lightening rods and yardsticks or a world with bunnies. But this week has been tough and today a lot of emotions were brought up and this upcoming week is just going to be hectic. Please pray that God gives me the strength to keep going and stay focused. I need His energy and stamina, caffeine only goes so far.

Thank you so much and have a amazingly wonderful-like awesomely blessed week!