I feel like life is a blur sometimes. Like I'm running down a street called Chelsea Lane and I just keep going and I can't see the end. The problem  with running through life is that I stop enjoying the view, instead I just run past it. Now, I'm going to try not to be all cliche on you guys. 

My senior year of high school is wrappping up and being in theatre, this is theatre season and we try to cram everything into 2 months and hopefully we'll finish all of it. It's not just theatre, but preparing for this trip, or all of my classes or the worship group, it all can add up. And I'll be preparing or practicing or studying and I forgot that I don't answer to myself or my deadlines or my teachers or Vicki Gross (FYM coordinator) or my parents. I answer to my creator and He has called me to then answer to all of those people. I forget that I'm not called to live the wealthiest most successful life in the world. Here I am trying to get all of these things done so that I can get somewhere in life where I may not be called to. Trying to get the best part or the best article or the best grade. I need to be focusing on answering God's daily call for my life, and in turn the part I need will come, the article He wants for me will come, the grade I should recieve for the work He has enabled me to do will come and the life that He wants for me will come. I'm not going to boycott homework, although it's tempting. God has set up this amazing life for me and everything I'm learning and doing now is going to come in handy then.

    But how dare I get so caught up in working to fufill His call, that I forget Him. Being super busy makes it super easy to blow off Jesus. And I've had a lot on my mind. The store I worked at closed so right now I'm trying to figure out if God wants me at a different store or another job. We just finished the musical and started our next play. We're wrapping up another issue in newspaper and some of the people who made it on the top 12 of American Idol shouldn't be there! (Just kidding on that last one...Sabrina should've stayed) But God has been teaching me what it means to have the lifestyle of a Christian, not just moments or hours, but a lifestyle. Day to day, minute to minute, making God part of my every moment. He's been revealing what it means to fall in love with my creator, what it means to fall in love and be captivated by Him. What kind of a fool am I to get so wrapped up in things that will end and forget about my Love, my Jesus, my Savior, the One who is designing my life. Being dedicated isn't a bad thing, but I need to make sure that my dedication is prioritized.

I need to stop running I need to walk, skip, crawl, but I need to see the beauty of what God has for me in each and every day. I look ahead and I see the beauty of my future. I look at the sidewalk I"m walking on, parallel to Chelsea Lane. God wants to grab my hand and walk down with me and I've been too busy running to actually take hold, but that's going to change.