Don't exist. Ya I had you there for a second didn't I? But if anyone finds some- let me know!

So I guess I kind of expected to wake up everyday here and have this amazing mountain top experience with God. But for the past couple weeks I've just felt distant from Him and it stunk. I kept praying and worshipping and everything but I don't know, I just felt distracted. This past week though God changed my mind a little bit. He reminded me that I have to choose Love. I mean how often do we rely on warm fuzzy feelings in all of our relationships? A wife doesn't wake up and say "I'm going to divorce you because I don't have those warm fuzzy feelings today."

My relationship with God is a choice that I have to make everyday wholeheartedly. And that's tough. It's really hard on my off day to take the time and show God that He is a priority in my life. But He is more than worth it. God has chosen us, He holds out His hand every moment of everyday, it's up to us whether or not we grab and take hold. God never left me in anyway in the time I felt distant. I just stopped acknowledging Him. What's crazy is that we need God in order to love God. I need Him to give me the ability to love Him. The kind of love He deserves isn't something I can't give on my own.

The theme lately for me has been stealing moments with Him. When you live with 36 other people in your house and then even more in the area it can be really hard to find that quiet place. But I realized I have to stop making excuses. So what if I live with a bunch of other people. There is always a quiet place even if you just block everything out of your head and talk to Him. So ya, I'm working on choosing Him every day, every moment, every word, every thought, I want Him! Thanks for letting me share. We have to post more blogs so I am trying to post two a week…